Guilty

Remember how I said I was going to track every.single.thing that went into my mouth? Remember how I blogged about how successful I was and how on track I am in general and how I am no longer making excuses? No? Oh yeah because that didn't happen.

I cannot get it together with this whole tracking my foods thing. WHAT.IS.THE.DEAL? Yep. All caps with the period -->that is how serious this is. I just read about not making excuses and how only I can change it and nobody is stuffing food down my throat (weird thought, let's not go there) so now I really feel the guilt.

This morning I had two pieces of pizza for breakfast. Why? Because I was lazy and didn't want to make my usual egg on a piece of toast breakfast of champs. It was sitting there, I was running around doing other things, I thought "hey that looks so good and fattening and full of calories" and off I went chomping down on food that started my day off with a big FAIL stamped on the first page (of the day...not the best analogy).

So here's the sweet part (and why I am posting right now instead of hanging my head down in shame and avoiding this little blog altogether). Instead of just calling it a FAIL day and inhaling everything in sight, I am eating healthy. Like super "who is that seriously? that girl is soooo healthy" healthy. I had a shake for lunch and Subway  is the plan tonight. No snacks, no chocolate, no cookies, no junk. Can I get an Amen?

Weekends are the hard part of the week for me (duh, for everyone right?) but I cannot keep making these excuses. I will report back soon with some more good news and if I don't send out a search team. I need the accountability now more than ever even though it is hard to take sometimes.

Happy weekend!

Disqus

I've been tired of a few things here on Blogger. Two stand out. One, I cannot unfollow blogs if I "subscribe" to them through Google Reader. No, pushing the "unsubscribe" button does not work. It will disappear while I'm on the screen, but if I refresh or come back to it later, the unwanted blog is still there. SO FUN to keep viewing blogs that I'm not interested in.

Two, I cannot stand how the comments work! There isn't a great option for someone who does not have an account somewhere (looking at you, mom) so "anonymous" is it. Except when I respond, the anonymous comment-er will not see it unless he or she comes back to check in. I bet that never happens. Just a feeling. I wouldn't do it, if I was the anonymous comment-er! But this problem? I fixed it!

I switched to using Disqus for comments. So. much. better. Now I can email back because each person has to put in an email (that only I can see). So feel free to ask questions because I can't respond now! Plus, you can like or dislike the page (hopefully not too many dislikes... might just break my little old heart). So far, better. Much better... So who else uses Disqus? What are your likes and dislikes?

This morning I forced myself out of bed and ran 1.5 miles. On the treadmill. I would consider the tradmill my gym enemy. I just hate it but there is no way I can get in shape for the 10k without it.

I spent the whole run chanting "you can do this you won't regret it you love this remember?" and somehow made my goal for the day. Next up? running two miles outside this weekend when its supposed to be 30° out-much better than that dreadful treadmill.

PLUS I'm planning on tracking every.single.thing i put in my mouth. Might be brutal but I need a good strong dose of reality. Happy Thursday!

volunteer, be self absorbed, make lists

Mind blank. I had a great thought that I really thought I should share with you. Now it has left me.

Today I went to an orientation to volunteer at the YWCA. My bible study girls and I have really felt the need to live out what we believe and not just get together each week and encourage each other. We don't want to be "holed" up talking when there is a world that needs doing. We kind of picked the YWCA randomly, but you would think by now that I would know that my random decisions are completely by God. There is no random.

My heart clicked with this place. We more than likely will end up sorting donations or organizing the food pantry, which may seem like the most boring task, but I am excited about it. It seems that once you are involved and helping out, you get involved in a bunch of different aspects of the organization.

I will have another post about it eventually... because it's going to really affect my life. I can feel it.

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Weight loss... the dreaded topic that I pretend you all don't care about so I don't have to bring it up.

I'm failing. I have mediocre days that I pretend are good and then wonder why I don't see results. I am too lazy to put in my food choices for the entire day so it does me no good. I just guess... which is always wrong (of that I'm sure). I can do great until I get home, but each recipe we use for supper is different, and WW selections are so lame since they changed to Points PLUS. Or maybe I just remember it differently from the last time I was successful using the online WW (over 4 years ago).

Either way - I need to get it together. I need a boost to motivate me. Something to just kick me in the pants and send me on my way down the road of true success. I'm hovering around the same number and I'm ready to see it change.

I'm doing meal replacement shakes for lunch since I can't handle too many choices throughout the day apparently. They are refreshing for now. Easy, filling, and something different.

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I need to go to bed. Need to. Then I need to get up and workout and somehow make my pants fit better. then I need to read my bible. I can accomplish these nice New Years resolutions. You just wait and see!