11/26/2013

Being tested

I'm going to be frank. We've had a tough couple of weeks. Fostering a new kid is not entirely to blame, although we've had challenges with that too (I'll get to that). We've been hit with illness and an overbooked schedule. On top of that, we have a toddler who is testing limits left and right and a baby (really, she's one now, she's kind of a toddler, gulp!) that is teething, clingy, and crabby 80% of the time.

But back to fostering. Man, it's been interesting. I've learned so many things in just 3 1/2 weeks. Hubby and I have had some huge discussions and realizations. We've gone around and around on why we are doing this, the impact it has on our lives, our children, our extended families, our friends. It affects so many things, this decision to foster a child. There have been times where I've been overcome with guilt because I feel like we are burdening those around us with something that we chose to do. does that make sense? Yet we can't do it entirely on our own. It's just not possible. Our little FB (foster boy) is doing  pretty great. He's adjusting well and gets along great with the girls. It's a handful with two kids that are about the same mental age (around three years) and another following right behind them, but honestly that hasn't added a crazy amount of stress. It's the schedule. Oh that schedule.


I took on an accompanying commitment for a local high school, just for one event but with a bunch of rehearsals. I had no idea we'd  have a long term placement. It seemed fun, challenging, and entirely doable when I said "yes" to it. Now, it seems overwhelming and burdensome. I don't regret doing it because I love getting to work with these students, but I won't lie that I am ready to be done with it. Except when I'm done, we'll be halfway through the Christmas season and I don't want to rush it. That's been keeping me in the moment, the realization that if I wish away this time, we miss my favorite time of year: Christmas season. So I try to make every day fun for the kids (rarely happens but I do try) and as enjoyable as possible for hubby and myself (still stressful, but we try to control the stress levels as much as we can). 

We agreed to host a big event for our small group and a bunch of international families. We love opening our home up to guests so it was a no brainer. We also had one side of our family's Thanksgiving and Audrey's birthday in the same week. When it rains it pours with hosting in this house. One thing after another. 

We'll be gone for Thanksgiving (and Christmas) and I have a piano recital in a couple of weeks with normal lesson and probably a few make up lessons thrown in up until then. Hubby is trying to stay as busy as he can before slow winter season kicks in, so he's in and out and not entirely reliable for childcare unless carefully planned out. 

I do believe we're being tested. We are doing something that God wants us to do. I have no doubt in my mind that we are called to this. This child, this little boy. However it ends up, however long he is here, he is with our family right now for a reason. We don't regret it. But this doesn't mean that we aren't being tested. God does allow for us to be tested. He isn't the tester, but he does allow it to happen. The only thing we can do (besides just giving up altogether) is to turn straight into His arms and hold on for dear life.

Lest you think I'm complaining, I want to end on a good note.

I'm thankful for our house, perfect for hosting huge amounts of people. 
I'm thankful for our flexibility, especially on the kids' ends. They are champs. 
I'm thankful for our friends and family that are supportive and helpful. 
I'm thankful for these children that challenge me every day but also make me smile and laugh all the time. 
I'm thankful for nap time and bed time. 
I'm thankful for this chilly weather that allows me to bundle up in my favorite outdoor accessories.
I'm thankful for coffee, diet coke (haven't kicked that habit yet), and a healthy body. I'm tired all the time but can you imagine how I'd be if I wasn't physically healthy? Yikes.
I'm thankful for my Savior that keeps me going even when I feel like I can't go on.
I'm thankful for this life of mine.

11/25/2013

Audrey's First Birthday Party

After a tough week, we pulled together and threw Audrey her first birthday party. It was so.much.fun! The prepping wasn't too bad. I didn't spend a crazy amount of time planning and preparing, but the day of was busy (as all party days are). My family came to town early to help out and I am so grateful they did because I had a killer headache and three kids running around. I wouldn't have got a lot done on my own.

On to the fun part. Pictures!

First the party decorations:

Streamers, cupcakes, and food

I made the cupcake toppers with my Silhouette machine

Hubby and I made the triple chocolate and vanilla cupcakes the night before and frosted the the afternoon of the party. I don't know why we subject ourselves to torture like that.

In the hallway, I put the pictures from our mini photo shoot on the wall along with a subway art sign of all things Audrey


Some blackboard greetings, using those jumbo letters from the photo shoot again, and party favors for the kiddos


Audrey insisted that everyone wear a hair bow. The men put them on their shirts for the most part and we loved it!

My helpful sister modeling her hair bow. Also, notice all the balloons. Hubby's cousin borrowed us a helium machine and they went to town blowing up balloons so that made the kids happy and the place look particularly festive.

I put her monthly pictures up behind the gift table and hung the birthday banner here too. I love having this at every party. It's a fun tradition to have started with Josie's first birthday.

A little peak at how much she has grown in 11 months.

Christmas decorations that were pink and white worked great as some added bling in the living room. We'll leave those up until the real Christmas decorations make their appearance.


And the birthday girl:

When Josie first saw Audrey, she exclaimed, "She is so beeeyou-tiful!" I couldn't agree more, my dear.

Every time she sat down, her dress did this. It was too cute.




A few pictures from the party:

Josie had a matching feather hair band and could be found holding a balloon for most of the party.

My parents' dog also sported a balloon.

Piles of presents and kids to help open them. Audrey lost interest after the first one.

The only picture we got from her eating her cake. Love that blue eyed girl!

 We also took some family pictures for our Christmas card. Here are a few bloopers (like I'd show you the winner this early...)

Skepticism in mama's eyes, Josie needs some cheering up, and Audrey has no idea where to look.

Nice face, hubby! He's ready... but nobody else is.

Audrey: "Hey Josie, are they for real? Isn't this a party or something?"

We had so many awesome family members and friends that made it. It was a blast to visit with everyone, eat some snacks and cupcakes, and watch the kids destroy enjoy the space and each other. My girl Audrey is worth it! We love her so much and loved celebrating her together.

11/19/2013

Audrey Joy is One

Audrey turned one on November 18th. We didn't do anything too crazy on her actual birthday since the birthday party will be on the following Saturday. Fear not, though, because she got plenty of love, kisses, hugs, and love (did I say that?). 


So what is Miss Audrey up to these days? Well, this month, she went from taking one or two steps to taking walks across the room. She doesn't exclusively walk, since sometimes crawling is just faster, but she definitely is walking. It's no longer a question as to whether or not she can do it. What is so funny is that she practices by herself when she doesn't think anybody is watching. Her big accomplishments seem to happen under the radar, on the side of the room or around the corner. I've really had to secretly watch her to catch her picking up speed and distance for the first couple of times. She takes her time with new things but works hard on them once she gets it in her head. I love her determination.


She doesn't have new teeth yet (although the early morning of her birthday consisted of me rocking her to sleep, which is unheard of, and then laying with her on the couch because she was so distraught over her mouth pain) but she can eat anything she wants. Those top two and bottom two do just fine. She must have gone through a growth spurt followed with minimal growing because she went from eating more than Josie to being picky and only wanting milk or water. Now she's back to eating, but she's not quite as easy as she used to be with food selections.


No bottles, no more formula (hallelujah), and no more bottles at night or before bed. She is still waking up with a dirty diaper every other night or so, but we are so glad to have broken the early morning feeding she absolutely insisted on up until this month.


I got out all of Josie's 12-18 month clothes and combined with what Audrey already has, we have enough to dress like four kids. Needless to say, she has options. She's pretty average sized although she feels so small to me compared to when Josie was this age. Part of it is the mobility, part of it is that her hair is still "baby hair," and part of it is that she truly is a little leaner than other kids her age. Don't be fooled, though, she has the sweetest baby rolls on her legs. I just love them. I'm not too eager for her to walk more because I know they'll disappear in a blink of an eye.


Audrey keeps up with the big kids pretty easily. She is getting a little more assertive and lets it be known if someone has wronged her. At the same time, she is pretty easy going. I've seen Josie or other kids take toys away from her and she barely bats an eye. She usually just moves on to the next thing or toy without a second thought but every once in a while, she'll declare war for the toy and it surprises everyone. I love it.


She's more clingy than she used to be. Frequently, I'll look down to her giving me the eyes, you know the ones, begging to be picked up. If I do happen to make eye contact and don't pick her up, she is not happy. She'll scream and throw a mini tantrum until she gets distracted or until she gets her way. Then, of course, she's not interested in me at all once I've picked her up. I'm merely a tool to get higher and to a better location with more fun things. But I don't mind so much that she wants to be around me. It won't be long before she's too busy playing with her big sister to give her mom the time of day.


Her vocabulary is the same. She hasn't really added more words but does have a lot expression. Her favorite new face is a big O mouth with wide eyes and a bit of a cheeky smirk. See below for an example.


Audrey is constantly bring out smiles in everyone around her. It sounds cheesy, but she is just a gem and everyone catches her contagious happiness. I can't even begin to describe how  much we love her.

To prove she doesn't always smile... 


I still can't believe she's already a one year old.


11/18/2013

Big day around here

Guess what.


It's Audrey's birthday!


This girl is no longer counting each month because she's...



She's the real deal now. Watch out, Josie. Audrey's catching up!


(full twelve month post coming soon)